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The Long Walk

In Moment with a Muse, Poetry on December 31, 2007 at 2:18 pm

The Long Walk
by Jonas Hyde

Home is where the heart is,
or so the angels say,
but my heart is with you my love,
and you are so far away.

Is there reason for our rhyme
I questioned once,
but now I question all the time.

I tread alone,
the curse and cross I want not to bear,
taking each step,
while dripping a tear.

The long walk started with a breath,
and will end not with destination of place,
but with the finality of my soul’s hope and death.

I long for you,
but you are so far away,
so I will start my long walk,
and cry alone for you tomorrow and a day.

The Moment

In Moment with a Muse, Poetry on December 28, 2007 at 9:54 am

The Moment
by Jonas Hyde

On shadowed night,
the gelid winds,
pillaged my soul.

From the darkness,
her hand ushered the path to salvation,
rekindling what I thought fore’er lost.

The luminance of my evening star,
the song of my muse,
the touch of my dragonfly.

I entered her cave,
the storm raging outside,
mirroring the tempest within me.

At first I doubted my eyes,
questioned my heart,
Did either betray me?

But her lullaby transfixed me,
soothing my fears,
bridging the col betwixt breath and dream.

Fore’er she spoke
lamenting of love,
of loss.

In return,
I could barely respond,
as I was lost within her.

Lost within her eyes,
wandering through her soul,
ne’er wanting to depart.

Trying not to mislay a minute more,
wishing time would cease for my passion,
I approached.

With a kiss,
our link was sealed,
bond framed by lust and love.

If a moment is measured by a breath,
than the meter of our song,
should be judged by the Gods.

For on that eve,
a night that lasts and lingers within my nous,
I had my moment with my muse.

The taste of her flesh,
the heat of her passion,
the scent of her lust.

Fore’er etched,
carved into the stone of earth,
woven into the fabric of our lives.

I recall her touch,
remember her motion,
and long to remain in that dance evermore.

The moment tho’ was fleeting,
as such is the curse,
of love and life.

The morn next when I awoke,
a dream it was not,
for there was my muse.

Still blanketed in my arms,
her fingers wrapped within mine,
our breath scoring a melody for the ages.

But there is where the pain begins,
when the moment ends,
when her song sings no more.

I want not to release her,
I yearn to keep her close,
but it was not meant to be.

For as hard as I tried,
for as long as I fought,
I received no more.

For my muse is ethereal,
and tho’ our bond was real,
her soma I could no longer touch.

As a spectre of the past,
a memory ne’er to be forgotten,
our time now exists only in song and rhyme.

But by cause of that night I shalln’t e’er forget,
the rebirth of my soul,
my moment with my muse.

Moment with a Muse

In Moment with a Muse, Other on December 26, 2007 at 7:15 pm

In attempt to bring order to this growing blog, the Moment with a Muse anthology has been given its own category. To view the poems in order CLICK HERE.

J/H

Holiday Tears

In Poetry on December 26, 2007 at 6:42 pm

Holiday Tears
by Jonas Hyde

Eyes open,
as if a rising sun,
over a horizon of anguish,
of sorrow.

“Daughter do not frown,
for on this day
the family is as one,”
he whispers softly.

“But father I weep,
I cry,
not for the moment I have,
but for the time when it will surely end.”

And so it goes,
the conversation once more,
as it always has before,
truth rarely spoken.

The snow has fallen,
and gifts are done,
but the scene is far from idyllic,
framed within the pain of our lives.

Holiday’s eve brought with it,
hurt,
anger,
as every night ‘fore

So I hold her close,
my arms wrapping her
in a paternal blanket woven for a lifetime,
of warmth and protection.

Together we pose,
heads behind the masques of seasonal cheer
hiding simply,
our holiday tears.

My Dragonfly

In Moment with a Muse, Poetry on December 24, 2007 at 9:52 pm

My Dragonfly
by Jonas Hyde

‘Wherefore art thou?’
my love,
my dear,
I weep ‘pon the eve’s cool mid night,
wishing my words held their weight,
as when whispered in times of yore.

Alas,
I lie,
here alone in an emerald field,
crimson rivers marbling my eyes,
dripping oceans of despair,
drowning out my soul.

I battle the restlessness,
as I try and fall to the fatigue,
the weariness that ne’er claims me,
and tho’ I long for it to,
it allows me no respite,
no reprieve from the pain.

My heart pounds,
as my mind wanders,
is it curse enough I lie alone,
that I must feel the anguish in each moment,
in every breath,
of lonely solitude?

And just as hope is to exhale,
in concert with my final gasp,
salvation comes to me,
on the gentle wind,
of Zephyr’s embrace,
giving me reason to invite the dawn.

I reach out my hand,
expose my palm,
which is as naked,
bare,
and stripped as my soul,
when she softly lands ‘pon me.

Fragile faerie,
whose gentle touch soothes my pain,
tempering the tempest,
the battle that rages within,
gives me strength,
with just a look.

I pull her close,
fearful she shall fly away once more,
as she has so often ‘fore,
tho’ this time she remains,
and her sweet scent,
bewitches me.

“Fear not my love,
I am here,”
she finally whispers in reply to my pleas,
words I have longed for,
yearned to hear for an eternity,
as her lips meet mine.

For the first time in fore’er,
and a night more,
my eyes close,
as I taste her pumpkin spice,
and my wounds heal,
as I soak her in.

My head falls back softly,
guided by her own strength,
with a vigor and potency,
unbecoming of her size,
and I drift off,
relishing in a slumber I have enjoyed all too rare.

The dreams of that night,
are a tale to be told another time,
for it will take a score or ten,
to find the words of solace I felt,
but when I awoke,
I did so with the verity of a new dawn.

And tho’ fairies are figures,
of tales and dreams,
her scent still lingered,
her taste was still ‘pon my lips,
and in her stead,
fluttered the wings of my dragonfly.

I Do

In Poetry on December 22, 2007 at 4:51 pm

I Do
by Jonas Hyde

‘I do’ was the lie you promised me,
our garden poisoned by your nefarious deeds
the flowers of our passion,
wilted by the suffocating weeds of your sin.

The long walk to freedom,
starts with but a moment,
a decision,
a realization of truth.

I exit the prison you trapped me in,
a better man.

The cold stone of these walls hold more comfort,
than the thought of your embrace.

God had pardoned my sentence,
voided the contract which shackled me to your hell.

Do I love,
do I hate,
do I lust,
do I detest?

I do

The Lazarev Files: Original Sin – Chapter One

In Uncategorized on December 22, 2007 at 4:16 pm

The Lazarev Files: Original Sin
Chapter One
by Jonas Hyde

“Lazarev…” I answered the phone after its fifth ring, half hoping it had already gone to voicemail. I normally would have tried to ignore it, but whoever it was just wasn’t getting the hint. They had been calling every minute, on the minute, and the vibrating battery against the weathered wood end table was just too much.

“Kat, you awake?” the nasally voice on the other end of the line spoke with eager impatience.

“Do I sound awake?” I retorted back roughly as I rolled over and tried to make out the time. My eyes were having trouble focusing, and I didn’t know if it was just the contrast of the red led light on the alarm clock in the blackened room, or if it had something to do with the empty fifth of Jack that was lying next to me. “What time is it?”

“Its 3:30, you’ve gotta…”

“In the morning?” I interrupted, now getting a bit short because of the pounding headache that was quickly setting in.

There was a slight pause on the other end before the voice responded with concern, “Um no… its the afternoon Kat. You ok? You need me to come over?”

I laughed to myself at the question, careful not to echo it out loud. Karl Sandberg was a sweet kid, but that was the problem, he was a bit too sweet, and I didn’t want to be the one to corrupt him. Normally I’d go for his type; tall, lean, and fresh out of college. I liked the younger boys, but there was something about him. Something innocent, and seeing as how it was the only innocent thing in my world, I didn’t want to taint it. Besides, he was a damn good assistant, and I didn’t want to complicate things. I knew he wanted more, he could never hide his nervousness very well. I decided the day I hired him I’d let him keep up the chase, but that would be all. No reason to dash his hopes, besides, it made him work a bit harder.

“No, I’m ok. It was just a late night,” I said as I pushed myself up, forcing my shoulders against the cold, stiff, headboard. I leaned over toward the end table and fumbled around for my pack of Turkish Royales. “So what’s up?” I mumbled as I clicked the head of my lucky pig lighter that shot a flame out of its ass.

“Well, you told me to call you if something came up.”

“And I take it something has?” I questioned as I grabbed the bottle lying beside me, hoping for a lost swig lingering at the bottom. Unfortunately, any whiskey that may have remained seemed to have dripped out onto the wrinkled sheets of my bed. The darkened room reeked of a distillery, and the distinct scent of Camel tobacco only seemed to enhance the aroma.

“Ya, I just got it over the scanner. Seems there was another murder.”

“Is it our guy?”

“It sounds like it could be. Forensics are on their way now.”

Glancing over again at the clock, my eyes were now in full focus, though my head was still a bit cloudy. “Alright, text me the addy and meet me there in a couple of hours. I want to give them time to finish.” Besides, I thought to myself, I really needed to get cleaned up.

“Sounds good,” Karl replied. “You sure you don’t need me to come over? Maybe we can go get dinner first?” he added with a forced confidence.

“You’re sweet luv, but I have an errand to run. I’ll see you there about 6.”

With that, I flipped my phone shut and tossed it on the bed beside me. After taking one long, last drag off my cigarette, I flicked the butt into the empty bottle and threw off the covers. The chill of the room engulfed my bare skin as I swung my legs off the left side of the bed. Sitting on the edge, I leaned over with my head in my hands and my elbows pressed against my thighs, and took a deep breath. After willing myself to fight through the oncoming hangover, I slowly stood up and made my way across the small room and over toward the heavily draped window.

I placed my hand on the thick cloth curtain, and pulled it to the side. I half expected to be blinded by the afternoon sun, but instead, it was just another overcast day. Fall time in Denver sucks… its like winter time most everywhere else. Say what you want about the city, but I hate the cold. And during this time of year, late October, cold seems to be a daily occurrence. The snow season generally starts in late September and can run all the way to March. That’s a lot of snow. I left this town a long time ago, hoping I’d never have to come back. Hope only takes you to places you don’t want to go apparently.

Scoffing at the thought, I turned around and made my way to the adjacent bathroom. Its a small space, this motel room, but the price was right and I was on a budget. Besides, I didn’t plan on spending much time here. Get in and get out, only resting when I needed to either lock myself away, or get a reboot. Last night I needed both. Fortunately for me, crime never sleeps.

I know it sounds a bit cliché, but its true. I can attest to it. Every year almost two million violent crimes take place, with a large amount of them going unsolved. That means there are over five thousand violent crimes a day in America, and I’m not talking drunk drivers, hazing mishaps, or burglaries gone bad. No. I’m talking things like pre-meditated homicides and serial rapes. Then there are the crazy cases. The type of crime the average person doesn’t hear about. Crime so depraved, the shock and awe would be too much for the public to handle. Occasionally, such crimes make it to the masses. If the papers get a hold of them, they can grip a nation. But even then, the media usually only gets half the story. Son of Sam, World Trade Center, Columbine… you’ve probably heard of them all, but you likely don’t know the truth. You’ve only gotten half the story. Me, I get the other half.

My name is Ania Katherine Lazarev, but my friends call me Kat. Hell, I guess my enemies call me Kat too, but the line between friends and enemies is always a hazy one anyways. Upon meeting me, most people are usually surprised. I’m 5′4″ tall, and have a naturally athletic body. I like to eat, love to drink, and never touch the gym. I’m of Russian descent, easily notable by my jet black hair and defined features.

As I splash some cool water on my face, I gaze at my reflection in the bathroom mirror. I’m hot. I know it, others let me know it, and I use it to my advantage. I’m far from what you would call a girly girl, and those that underestimate me always get burned. All of these are good traits for my line of work. You might have heard of me, I wrote that book, Footsteps of A Serial Killer: The Life and Times of Johnny Righteous. For those that don’t know, I suggest you Google it.

Johnny Righteous was a serial killer, a grade-a psychopath who thought he was cleansing the world with his killings. He traveled around the country, slaughtering people at random. Well, to the rest of us it seemed random. But to Johnny Righteous, he had a purpose. Anyone God ‘told’ him to cleanse, he did so… permanently. As sick as he was though, he was my claim to fame. It took the law nearly fifteen months to find Johnny, but it only took me eight.

Once I found him, I followed him. That was short lived as he quickly realized I was on his tail. He later told me God told him I was watching him, which made the whole damn thing even creepier. But whether he spoke to God or not you’ll have to decide for yourself. So go buy my book.

He approached me one day, and for only the second time in my life, I was actually scared. I thought I was going to be his next victim. After telling me God alerted him to my presence, he went on to add that this time, his message was different. He had made it a point not to kill me. At that moment, a relationship was formed. He took me as a willing hostage. He wanted someone to document his every move, and I needed insight into his world. I didn’t let on that I wanted to be there, but I didn’t exactly try to escape either. He wasn’t the fish I was looking for, but he at least would put me in the right pond.

So for the next seven months, I trailed Johnny around the US. I documented his every move, and his every kill. I’d like to say it was the hardest time in my life, but it wasn’t.

In the aftermath of his arrest, I nearly went to jail as an accomplice. It took some convincing that I wasn’t with Johnny willingly. Hell, most people still don’t believe me. The families of those he killed after I started trailing him all blamed me for the deaths of their loved ones more than Johnny himself. I can’t say I totally blame them, which is why I have so much trouble sleeping at night. In the end, my hostage story stuck, a story Johnny backed all the way to the electric chair. Who says killers and thieves don’t have honor? He was a depraved murderer, but that psycho covered for me to the very end.

After being cleared of all charges, it took all of two seconds for my phone to start blazing. This publisher and that studio all wanted my story… or rather, Johnny’s story. Either way you look at it, we are forever linked. I might have gotten the book deal, but Johnny got his freedom. All he wanted was to serve his God’s purpose and return to him. Me, I have the visions of seven months of murder etched into my brain. And like I said, that was only the second worst time of my life.

The book hit it huge, and ever since, my publisher has been looking for sequel to cash in on. The opportunity for me was golden. I got to continue the search that led me to Johnny in the first place, and they get first dibs on another guaranteed best seller. Of course, its all been on their dime. At first they sprung for Hilton’s, but as time passed, I got relegated to places like the Queen Ann here, which trust me, is far from the posh that its royal name would suggest.

So now here I am, back in Denver. I never thought I’d return, but sometimes a girl’s gotta do what a girl’s gotta do.

Eternal Sleep

In Poetry on December 22, 2007 at 3:39 pm

Eternal Sleep
by Jonas Hyde

Eternal sleep
Release me from my mortal coil
Close my eyes
And let forever wash me away

I am so tired
Of all my suffering
I want to shed out all vestige of my humanity
I need to make it through this day

But I know I wont
For my soul shall be claimed by my own hand
And the wretched excuse that is my existence
Shall be nevermore as my body lay

Consume

In Moment with a Muse, Poetry on December 22, 2007 at 3:37 pm

Consume
by Jonas Hyde

I bestir to her essence,
burned within my psyche,
whilst longing for her touch.

Darkened princess,
she who consumes my thoughts,
nay my soul.

I strain for her,
for hair of chocolate rivers,
for the scent that entrances me,
for the eyes that pierce my depths.

Her voice gives me meaning,
as I yearn,
as I long for more of her victuals.

To exist within her heart,
to perish within her arms,
such are my sacred appeals.

Yet my entreaty is the Tempter’s gift,
a tainted endowment,
for I consume the wine of our passion alone.

I curse the solitude of this love.

To subsist in ignorance may not be as sweet,
tho’ surely,
would not be as bitter,
just with verity I can be sure,
such a life,
would be a sin of breath.

Thusly I step,
my umbrageous path illuminated by my Evening Star,
my intimate suffering mended by the salve of my muse.

I implore you,
consume my love,
for you consume me my love.

Evening Star

In Moment with a Muse, Poetry on December 22, 2007 at 3:35 pm

Evening Star
by Jonas Hyde

By quill and ink I pen these words,
understanding not what forged such fires.

I gaze upon the darkened sky,
and regard a Star in shadowed veil.

Her sparkle and verve enrapture my breath,
pulling my nous from the gravity of mire.

Her light glistens strong,
closing the distance betwixt ours souls without fail.

Star in my sky,
You give me pause.

I speak to your beauty,
your passion and your radiant charm.

Please hear my words whispered ‘pon this silent night,
whence thy effect ‘pon me is born with cause.

‘For on this eve I am not alone,
and my Evening Star holds my eye within her arms.’

Solace’s Song

In Moment with a Muse, Poetry on December 22, 2007 at 3:31 pm

Solace’s Song
by Jonas Hyde

Eve’s satellite winks her eye,
through and through,
the pinhole of her child’s darkness,
in point,
the veil,
that cloaks the nightmare woven of fear,
of sorrow.

The girl stands clouded,
bosom pounding at the edge of the storm,
the fine line where the rain falls just ‘fore her feet.

Draped in the nurture of her lover’s strength,
she steps.

Saline pelts from the sky,
droplets of worry,
regret,
hurt,
anguish.

With each stride,
the storm’s edge recedes further.

The calamities,
and tragedies,
of life,
and love,
hold nary a grip,
held at bay,
by her lover’s rapport.

Shortly she stands,
‘pon the cliff’s line,
at the precipice of choice.

“Weep no longer,
my dearest,
my love,”
he sings gently to her.

“Let the fears of yore,
remain merely memory,
whilst the spark of our souls guide you forth,”

Cursing caution,
she withdraws the trammels of incertitude,
and leaps.

The vehemence,
the madness,
the fury true,
of life’s tempest,
rages against her,
tho’ scathes no more.

The burthens that held her back,
plunges to the void,
whilst her soul surges,
soaring on the whispered wind,
of Solace’s Song.